Grey Matters

Today, after so long, I have decided to blog again. Last year when I slowed down, I wanted to focus on my career. I was quite happy...

Today, after so long, I have decided to blog again. Last year when I slowed down, I wanted to focus on my career. I was quite happy settling down at work and burying myself in projects until last week.
(This is going to be a loooooong post)

I was preparing for my Lesson Observation and felt quite pleased with myself for coming up with something spectacular (don't all teachers feel the same way?). At the same time, I was planning the cluster event. Then news of several colleagues getting their promotion hit me. Promotion for my track is almost impossible in the first five years. That night, I went into my cave and did some thinking. What exactly am I doing?

My career path is so limited. I felt like I was doing so much and was not given recognition. No matter how fantastic my lesson plan was, how awesome my delivery is or how smoothly my event went, I will still be in the same grade as I was five years ago. I never wanted to climb the corporate ladder. I even wanted to lay low this year so that I can concentrate on planning the wedding. Of course that didn't materialise. I worked so hard I fell really ill. I became unhappy. I cried while I was doing my work. I wanted to run away from it. I realised I needed some recreation time before I go crazy.

I thought long and hard. My babe reminded me of my blog. My very dusty blog. I used to write as a platform to express myself. Dressing up was a hobby I invested every weekend. It gave me the opportunity to be someone else for a day. I didn't have to think about work. Yesterday, I dreamt that my blog was hacked. I was determined this time. I decided to start blogging again. On a regular basis. This is my creative outlet. This space will be back to its glorious days again, InsyaAllah.

Outfit
Skirt : H&M
Shoe : Adidas
Bag : Charles & Keith
Shawl : Adlina Anis
Watch : Swatch

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